Move Out Day

November 10, 2015 was move out day. My roommate decided that she did not want to renew the lease to our apartment and I couldn’t find anyone to replace her, so I was forced to leave the comfort of the place I had called my home.

My relationship with my roommate had deteriorated over the course of our one year lease. I’m not exactly sure why. I tried to talk to her about it a couple of times, but she wouldn’t allow herself to REALLY speak her mind. She would say that her changes had nothing to do with me, but she would give me the cold shoulder as if it did. Life in our apartment was tense - for me, anyways, because I was always so concerned about why she started acting so differently towards me. I assume her changes were the reasons she chose not renew our lease and continue to save money for another year.

Then again, I quit my job back in April or May and hadn’t been able to find another job. I had also stopped receiving any additional income, and the little money I had saved was quickly dwindling. By the time move out day arrived, I didn’t have the money needed to renew our lease. Heck, I didn’t have any money at all!

So, it looks like my roommate made the right decision. She went on to lease a new apartment on her own. I, on the other hand, had no idea where I was going to go.

On the days leading up to move out day, when people found out that I was moving out of my apartment, they would ask where I was heading next. That was a difficult question to answer and I would try to blow it off and tell them I would let them know, making it seem like no big deal.

For some of my family and friends, reading this blog will be their first time hearing about my circumstances. Leading up to, and even in the midst of this situation, I’ve had to make some difficult decisions that some people just wouldn’t understand. They would criticize me and not allow themselves to understand my position. Others would likely worry themselves to death and try to convince me to do things that would make THEM feel better. So, I decided to keep my business to myself.

The people with whom I shared some of my decisions had a hard time understanding them and would undoubtedly resist those decisions that I haven’t shared. If I had made the easier, more reasonable decisions, I might not be in the position of need right now. The thing is, I believe that I am right where God wants me to be.

Before we officially moved out of our apartment, my roommate offered that I stay with her in her new apartment for a couple of weeks. At first, I didn’t understand that. It seemed to me that she was eager to get away from me and be on her own. Now, here she was making me an offer to stay with her. It baffled me. But God reminded me that He uses whom He wants to use to do His will.

Around the beginning of our roommate-ship, my roommate told me that she felt that she was blessed because she was in my presence. I was touched by this comment and was reminded of it when God led me to accept her offer. My acceptance gives me a roof over my head for a couple of weeks and puts her in the position to be blessed (Matthew 25:34-40). When she first spoke those words about a year ago, I had no idea how prophetic they would be.